I konw I've been posting a lot lately, but as I'm becoming more aware of what's going on, I feel confused a lot - A LOT! - and it's helpful to come here.

So, I know I had a hard session with T yesterday. I posted some stuff about it on the psychotherapy board. I know he held my hands and hugged me - but I don't know if I actually remmeber that or if I know it because I can read it on the board. I do know the secret I told him, but I kind of have to strain to know. But I can't remember anything else about the session!!! And I'm not sure if I remember what I remember, or if I just read about it on the board.

I KNOW that earlier today, the session was still with me, big time. I have a memory of going over the all the details in my mind. I know it was vivid. I remember thinking about it. How could it be so vivid then, and gone now? I mean, it's GONE. Actually, right now, I can remember the very beginning of the session. But that's it. Will it come back? Or is it gone?

I'm positive I talked to T on the phone this morning, but I don't know what was said. Then it seemed like little me was here this afternoon....or was that her in session? Or both? AND WHO AM I RIGHT NOW? I feel really strange. Really.

I'm confused. AGAIN. I really hope someone reads this and responds.