Welcome to PC, istherehope!

It sounds like you are thinking about a lot of things and feeling overwhelmed. I go there a lot, and it's not a good feeling at all! Going to therapy seems to have slowed me down a bit and quieted all of that noise in my head, even though it's not something we've ever specifically worked on. Do you have a counselor at school you could talk to, to help you start sorting things out? For me, it helps talke to someone outside of my own head when I'm feeling like that.

As for the boy, from what you wrote, it doesn't sound like you feel comfortable with him. Please don't put yourself in a situation where you feel uncomfortable just so you won't hurt his feelings. That worries me.

(((((((((((((((( istherehope ))))))))))))))))) I'm glad you posted!