I had a few good days (good enough that I thought about cutting T back a little bit). There were actually days that I felt great. Last night and the night beofre I started having a lot of anxiety and I couldn't get my mind to just slow down. Today, before T I felt okay. Throughout the evening I've started feeling worse and worse, but more depressed than anxious. As long as I don't have to think about stuff, I can generally manage but today he specifically asked about my mood so I told him about the anxiety that was starting, which of course led into a discussion about something else that I get nervous talking about and my first reaction is to just go on like everything is okay, so we didn't talk about it very long. Outside of T, a lot of times I feel like I'm going to burst into tears for no apparent reason, but in T I have to be okay. We have talked about stuff that if alone, I just want to cry about, but in T, I laugh and make jokes about it. I feel like today I needed to talk about something, but there's about 200 different things running through my mind and I can't filter it. I'm not sure what I'm wanting here...just trying to sort things out I guess.