shes hospitalized from a suicide attempt...im heartbroken...they dont let visitors in there and that kills me even more...i can just imagine her in there all by herself...i break down everytime i think of it...

we figure out plans to help her deal with my past, but few minutes later she wants to give up me and her life...this has gotten alot worse.

the doctors are trying a new medication and some therapy...

anyone know how to help with this particular issue? i want to help her with her insecurities and self esteem. does anyone know what i can do?
i reassure her that she is the one for me...and yes if i have to deal with this for the rest of my life, I will...thats how much i love her.

please anything...its so sad seeing her like this...sometimes i think about dying with her...to end all the pain...but ofcourse im not gonna do it...just thoughts about it...i really just want to help her and help us. and im ready to take however long it may take.

thank you everybody for being supportive.