Two things. First it's blatantly obvious that you should seek out the advise of another therapist. Second, driving people away, you're always at fault, you're good for nothing but crying... that is the powerful voice of depression talking. More than likely, you already know that. I hardly believe that in the long run you want to be alone. It could be that for now, somewhere inside, you want to be alone until you begin to feel better. I wish you the best. Take care.

ryan