Just scared, confused, even these new forums make me anxious.

I'm just stuck and don't know what to do. I keep telling myself, get a therapist, but I'm too scared to get one. Take medication for my other problems, too scared of medication to do that. I feel like my doctor is a brick wall, I get nowhere. Still haven't rescheduled to get my eye checked out.

Keep seeing things. Hearing things. Scary things. We all do. I don't know how to say this but I always feel like I'm so mad at all my alts. I still just don't understand anything.

I want to talk but it's like I don't know how. Or I want to talk and get help but I don't know how I can be helped I'm scared of so much and things get worse.

I don't know who I am, who anyone is, reality seems to scary sometimes because it's my reality

Thanks for letting me vent a little.