I know I have the same feelings about the rough times I keep going through & they are nothing compared to what you have experienced. It seems that everything that exists in my life is so much more difficult than it should be. Something so simple as getting my prescription filled.....the same prescription since 2003....all of a sudden....back orders are keeping it out of the pharmacy & it isn't a med I can go without for even a little while without having horrible problems.....of course, there is the IRS.....we won't even go there right now......they are as abusive as any husband....mentally, not physically however. It seems like it never ends & I keep praying for a break.....the only break I got was my dog's leg when he got in a fight with the dog & was foster caring for after the huge auto accident by my farm.....guess I have to watch what I ask for....lol.

I know what you mean about....how strong we should be by now.....when everything that goes on in my life.....my friend said....you can do absolutely nothing & wham....something hits you.....even when I'm isolating I can't escape the rough times....so why bother....just go with the flow & enjoy the good when is accidently happens....lol.

Giving back to others is sometimes all we have to give when all else is taken away....& the people don't have to answer for their actions. I know how many times things have happened & the people don't even have to answer for what they did or take responsibility.......I don't want others to go through what I have experiences....so giving seems to help.....to talk through & save others from similar harm......is the only thing that helps.

Proud of you & your survival through that trapped relationship you were in.......amazon or not....being a survivor is what it's all about.

Debbie