Griffe,
I feel anxious about this new forum, I keep making mistakes and it won't do what I want. I just want to be nice to you and it won't let me. GRR.
I think a T could help you; you don't have to know what to say before you go. You need to help yourself get to a better place. I get confused sometimes and my head does weird things and I feel bizzare sometimes and I don't like my life or my own system of alts somedays. I had to learn to be nicer to me inside - ****some of the confusion and upset in my system was BECAUSE I was being mean to my insiders and they were mad at me too. Help is out there, I encourage you to seek some help and let your girlfriend help you find the help. It can get better than this, really!!!
Leslie and the Pixies:Good-Luck:
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Originally Posted by Griffe
Just scared, confused, even these new forums make me anxious.
I'm just stuck and don't know what to do. I keep telling myself, get a therapist, but I'm too scared to get one. Take medication for my other problems, too scared of medication to do that. I feel like my doctor is a brick wall, I get nowhere. Still haven't rescheduled to get my eye checked out.
Keep seeing things. Hearing things. Scary things. We all do. I don't know how to say this but I always feel like I'm so mad at all my alts. I still just don't understand anything.
I want to talk but it's like I don't know how. Or I want to talk and get help but I don't know how I can be helped  I'm scared of so much and things get worse.
I don't know who I am, who anyone is, reality seems to scary sometimes because it's my reality 
Thanks for letting me vent a little. |