I always blamed myself for everything that I experienced, be it a misconception or not. I think to myself now "If only I could do something right for a change, this wouldn't have happened". I guess in some way I blame my parents too, but really when I said to them "You've ruined my life" I felt it was my fault. I was just expressing my own unhappiness.

Sorry for babling, but yeah, it is kind of ironic, isn't it?