Hi Silver I dont know you as yet though I have read a few of your posts and find you to be a great human being. Parents unfourtunately can be rough on you. My hubby whose father passed away last August is still seeking approval from him. Tho he is getting better at the realization that it will not come from him ever. My husband is a great artist and we hope to open our own business soon. His works in silver and gold. Sorry if this long. He did not work the same job his father did, he has not bought a house, he married a woman who could not give him children, and he is short of money alot. LOL I love this man dearly and he loves me which pulls me thru my tough times. Anyhow, same thing I told him is that no matter what he does his itegrity (sp?) is his own and he does well even though he gets depressed at times. Anyhow I am sorry I AM rambling and making no sense here I would guess. I really hope that someday you can free yourself to be yourself without feeling that you need to please all. (((((silver))))) I really do wish you the very best and hope to see you again here soon and feeling better. Linda