I tried to reply to a couple posts about this, but it would not let me. Keeps telling me I am not logged in or something. So, I will try to rewrite it all here. I hope this works. Sorry, for yet another new thread about the same old stuff, but I have not shared my thoughts and feelings yet. Although, they are not too unique, it would make be feel better to do it.

Anyway, here goes....

Okay, this is my first post at our new home. I finally, got the nerve to do it. Computers don't scare me. I do stuff online all the time and it does not make me anxious. But, right now, I am a little anxious. Not because I am scared of all the new things, but because of the lack of old things.

You know, I was trying not to say anything because I don't want people to think I am just complaining or that I don't appreciate everything that is being done for me (us). I absolutely love PC and DocJohn and all the admin and mods. I completely understand why we have to move and I think moving is a good thing and that we will all eventually probably love our new home. I really, really, appreciate all the hard work that has gone into it. Overall, things seem to have gone pretty well. So, kudos to everybody that made it all work out. Thanks! Thanks! Thanks!

But, none of that prevented me from being overwhelmed and anxious yesterday when I logged in and found all this. I stopped by here few times, but it just made me anxious so I did not stay. And, yes, I did go back to the old site to see things and that made me feel better.

Part of my "issues" involve obsessively rereading things in order to calm my anxiety. If you had any idea how many times I have reread some of the posts on the old forums you'd probably admit that it is a little weird and not something people normally do. I feel compelled to reread things because it relieves my anxiety to do it. It is reassuring to reread something that does not change even if I am not really interested in it and I know it has not changed. It is comforting for me to find the old posts made it here okay and that makes me feel better, but it still makes me anxious that things look a little different.

Here is an example, even though the updates to the community guidelines don't change very often (trust me on that one) and I don't have questions about them (because they never change) and, really, why do I care that on 3/12/2007 a guideline was added telling us to follow the requests and directives of the mods and admin (btw, it was generally understood previously but was made explicit) I still feel compelled to reread them. I have reread them not just a few times, every now and then, but LOTS of times on LOTS of occasions. And, yeah, I have already checked them out here, matter of fact, I've reread them a few times....and, in case you are wondering, no, they have not changed. It just makes me feel better to reread them, so I do it. And, I am sure that it will probably blow my mind if they are ever updated because I don't like it when things change.

So, I was in bed, trying sleep, but I kept thinking about all this, so that is why I am here. Yes, I feel compelled to reread...I just need to reread something...yeah, I am a little obsessive about writing too.

I know that what I am doing does not make me crazy and that I don't have some type of exotic mental illness, but I admit it does make me feel a little strange and it is a little embarrassing. I am not sure why I am telling you all this. Please don't be paranoid, but yes, it just might be one of your posts I am obsessively rereading.

Anyway, welcome everybody to our new home and I hope we all start to feel comfortable here real soon. Right now, I am going to go read things....maybe a few times...maybe lotsa times....