Hmmm... Don't know what might to suggest, Greygoose. I've been cooped up indoors with serious anxiety and depression for years. Not sure how I'll react if I get a response from a job application I sent in a few days ago. I'm gritting my teeth and biting my nails apart with worry.

I don't want to "hit the sauce" just to get to work, but I'm desperate for income and don't want to blow another job over fear. The loathing over the type of work can be dealt with, but it's the anxiety that causes me to run away and hide.

I've only had limited experience with benzos. They didn't help me much.

Ughh. I must be chewing my cuticles apart when I'm asleep. This is too strange. Alcohol is upsetting my stomach and i've got some funky gastrointestinal thing going on.

Basically, I'm falling apart mentally and physically.

If I weren't such a horrendous mess, I might have some helpful suggestions for you, Greygoose.

Got any suggestions for me???!!!!

Sorry, Greygoose. All I can say is to hang in there, bite the bullet and... plead to the doc. to help you!!!!!!

Must find a way to be functional.

Take care, Greygoose.

-friedgreymatter