If you are unhappy with this therapist, perhaps it's time to look for a new one? If you have talked to this therapist and he is not hearing you, you might also try writing it down for him, or printing off some of your posts here for him to read. If that doesn't work, it might be time to find one who will hear you?

Also, perhaps some antidepressants can help the depression that binds you so? Forgive me if I am incorrect in that- I have found in myself that when I get into the state of mind that feels so hopeless, it is often that my depression has gotten worse.

While DID can be seemingly debilitating at times, I am finding that when I seek joy in the little things, I am finding joy. That has helped my depression 100-fold. Maybe you can try to find for yourself what things you can do on your own, with the skills that you have? One thing I have finally learned is that while my therapist can care and my therapist can guide me, ultimately it is up to me to incorporate the things I have learned.

I hope you are able to figure some things out freewill. We are here if you ever want to talk. I know some days can be harder than others for sure. :Heart::Heart::Heart: