I am frightend, I am weak, I am out of control.....
I don't understand what just happend to me, it really scared me. I got done with my speech and communtications class, I went out to my car, called the doctor to reschedule to friday and all of a sudden I just freaked, I had to leave, I had this overwhelming urge to run and get away from people. So I left, I didn't have any control, it's like this whole seperate person took over and started driving home, thank goodness I had no more classes. I went into some weird autopilot. I felt like I wasn't really in my body, that the body I was in wasn't mine, it belonged to someone else. When I was driving it was like I was seeing out of someone else's eyes it scared me. I came home and started taking straight shots of vodka and I hurt myself....I'm still shaking...I don't know what that was...it's like it was an entirley diffrent person...I would be driving and not even realize where I was, it was all so much like a dream....so scared and mad....I don't know what to do...help.....

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