((((Depressme))))

I'm really sorry that you're still manic - not sleeping would really get to me & this has been going on for a while for you.

And I'm with you about the perfect people. Just remember it's an advertising conspiracy, aided as someone already shead by heavy duty photoshoping. You're perfectly fine the way you are and a saturn is an absolutely fine sensible car.

When do you next see your pdoc? I'm wondering if there's anything med wise that can be tried to bring you down?

You've probably already tried exercise but when I'm really wound up, I find doing weights really helps for some reason. Makes me feel powerful and slows me down.

I don't know your stand on meditation but I really like it. Jon Kabat Zinn has some good mindfullness for beginner's CD's that I really like. If you're brain is in overdrive it might be easier to do guided meditation rather than trying to just do it on your own.

Seriously, I hope things get better for you soon.

--splitimage