Thank you so much for your reply. I will look for the books you suggested. If only I had known about adult adhd in college. I suffered such low self esteem and was painfully shy. I do have a very supportive husband now and I already feel like I can get some support from this forum. I feel so stupid for ignoring this problem for all these years. I always thought I lived a charmed life. I've had so much joy in my life, but the inner struggle has been unbelievably disruptive to my peace of mind. Thanks for participating - I see you've been a member for some time now.