Thanks for the replies guys. My nephew isnt a little kid he is 17. I have adopted my other sisters kids who are small. I have had them for 8 years. It is stressful to get another child in the house because he is a freshman cedit wise at school but he is supposed to be a senior. He smokes and I am just trying to get my bearings. His mom never made him go to school, he has been moved and moved and stuff so he is a little nervous. I am just trying to nurture him as best as I can. Taking care of his basic needs. He isnt used to having food when he needs it. he has holes in his shoes,. As for my ptsd its ok. Im tired. I had to take my youngest back to the er the second time for her in 5 days for asthma last night. Im tired we got home well after midnight like 1 am or so. I had therapy yesterday and it helped. My therapist called me a genius lol....I have emdr tomarrow. Ptsd is hard to deal with on top of everything else..but I love the kids all three of them..so its ok.