thank you both for responding

biggest problem with T right now is she is trying to do CBT for my panic disorder. she spent 20 minutes yesterday trying to get me to tell her how i felt during a particular event. i have no idea how i felt, we got pulled over on the way to T and i had a major panic attack. All i remember is fear. i don't remember getting the rest of the way there, and i really only remember about the 2nd half of therapy. and she is telling me all i need to do is tell myself that i am a good person who deserves to be loved and i won't have panic attacks anymore.

i am terrified. i left the house the other day. alone, walking. i vaguely remember needing to go somewhere, the next thing i remember is standing in the middle of the road with my husband telling me i couldn't walk anymore, he would take me anywhere i wanted to go but i had to get into the car. i was 6 miles from home on a major highway. everyone says oh, good job, you left the house.

i am scared and alone in a house full of people who i know love me. hubby is on verge of a nervous breakdown, and won't seek help, and i don't know what to do. and i am afraid to try to find a different T till i finally get my social security, because i can't find any other way to make money and get medical treatment.

lost

p.s. multipixie, i have found 2 pics for you for avatar, and i think i can walk you through getting them posted, but i couldn't pm you the pics to look at.