For me, isolation came first as a survival response to MI, then art came out of that as the only way I can reach out of the isolation without the slam effect it always means to my psyche to "get out there." Art enables me to communicate, but frees me from conversation and it's pitfalls of persuasion, argument, competition, and confusion.

I hope you can let the conflicted feeling about it just rattle itself out of gas, and let the art come. It sounds like you are isolated anyway, yes? Have the impulse for art, yes? Well then, what does it matter weather you choose it or not, or weather that choice is ok or not? It's already just how it is.

Art is always worth the expression. Go for it.