My face... always numb.... felt.. touch for the first time on my face... today... went to the Body Work T.... and realized.. for the first time.. I could feel.. someone touch my face...

mimic.. actions... touch his face... he touch my face... and I felt.. touch..

my face.. so slapped.. so beaten... never realized.. I stopped feeling my face... red.. raw.. bruised... beaten....swollen.. bleeding...

I remember the very first slap... my ex-husband.. gave me.. a back hand slap.. that left.. hand print.. and I stopped feeling...

felt.. shamed.. embrassed.. scared... too afraid.. to leave the house.. that others.. would know.. my shame... my secret....

Damaged ... forever and a day.....

and.. my son.. the one.. I love.. chooses.. you.. my ex-husband...why?