Oh Angie, I'm soooo sorry for what you're experiencing right now. I know how truly awful it is. I know that at times such as these you can feel so very very alone and that no one cares. But we do...I do! You've given me so much support and encouragement, I can't thank you enough for that. And if I could give you even one tenth of that it would be a great thing.

As far as meds go, well my experience with Seroquel is that it varies greatly from person to person as far as how much you need. This is a wonderful med for treating acute bp. Start small and work you're way up. I'm kinda leary of giving med advice as I'm not a dr. nor am I on meds. But I can speak from experience, my dr. told me that I could adjust this med as I saw fit provided I did not exceed 800mg per day. Sometimes I needed that much and other times I didn't. The reason I don't take it anymore is because it gave me restless leg syndrone. When I would try to go to bed at night, even though it had me very sleepy, I couldn't get comfortable or keep still because it was almost painful to keep my legs still. It was positively maddening and therefore defeated the purpose of taking the med in the first place. But like I said, everyone is different.

Please take care of yourself Angie. It's so important that right now you don't play into the cycles and make them worse. Control your environment as much as possible. Do what you need to do to comfort yourself. Do what you have to in order to create a soft place to fall when all is said and done.

I'm here for you sweetheart. I'm cycling with you. Look at us, were still here to tell the story. Just allow the story to unfold. Ride the wave, just don't feed it. We'll both come out the other side in tact and alive to tell the story. And hopefully better educated about our own personal experience with the illness so that next time we'll be even better armed against the enemy.

Keep your chin up Hon, everything will be okay. TgrsPurr.