Hi ((((((((((Heidu))))))))))) = Tis me, your friend, Peanut. I wanted to read all of the responses and see if I could understand more about your situ., and I think I am little by little. I

'm still coming up snake-eyes on any good advice though... We seem to be stuck, you and I, that's kind of what I think.

Your situ. is worse being in Norway I think, because you are more isolated geographically from the known. I'm probably more self-isolated. Either way, tis still a very lonely place to be, eh?

But you know what, somehow neither situ. 'feels' hopeless to me... do you know what I mean? It seems like something is going to change, but just not sure what yet...

I know this is going to sound trite, but I'm actually thinking of it myself, and that is, what about volunteering? In your case, teaching English would probably be a much sought after skill, for one thing =

I was thinking of doing teen mentoring, but then I think, what will the kids learn from me if I don't have my stuff together...I'm also thinking of trying to get my teaching credential beginning in the spring semester...

Anything to shine a ray of hope into the situation. Just a little bit of self-confidence/self-esteem regained would go a long way for both of us.

We could take little steps each day and try to be each other's support, plus all of our friends here... Just some thoughts...

A benefit I have right now is that the only ongoing squashing of my self-esteem that I'm having to endure is, at this point, self-imposed, whereas, you still have to contend with your husband...

But if you were getting even a bit of validation from the outside, it would give you something to balance his input with...

Well, I'l stop my rambling for now. Your in my thoughts = wishing you all the best, and sending you positive energy... Peanut

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