for those of you who have read my previous posts, you know that my hub and i just got back together after a seperation as per my request. i must tell you that it is going quite well. i've had a rough patch these past couple of days because i ran out of my meds and my pdoc was out of town. it was tough but i am getting through it and am suppose to see my pdoc today. hopefully that goes well. well since my hub and i had a chance to be alone in the house with just the kids and none of my other relatives who were living in my house, i noticed that our life was much better, just the two of us. it was my fault that my relatives were residing in our home. i should've realized that problem when my hub brought it up to me on several occasions, instead i use to get defensive about it and shut him out. now i can see the difference and i understand where he was coming from. my relatives had been gone for 2 weeks and just came back for one week until they move out this weekend, and i must tell you that i realized that i enjoyed our time alone without them in the house. without my meds and my fam there, i began to shut down. and now i am looking forward to their move. i am going to miss my aunt because in essence she has really been my mother. but i am so glad not to be living with my mother. i am glad that i told her that she can't stay with us. it was hard for me to do because i try to avoid confrontations at all costs due to my anger issues and shutting down problems. but i have to say i think this is the best change i have made in a long time.