Also be thinking of you... it's in 45 min. at this point. *sending Benedict over to be with you* He's warm, like a lil space heater, he'll keep you warm when your heart and body feel like winter.
When austin died i had a lot of terrible traumatic thoughts - if you need to tell someone, i'm all ears. the worst thing for me was when i felt i couldn't talk to anyone about him; his life, his death, my thoughts and feelings, fears.... don't isolate yourself, k?