My friend Peanut. It is a lonely place to be.

I've thought alot about volunteering. I have alot of good to give. They have canceled english languages classes in my county for some reason and I don't know when they may offer them again. Any other volunteering is a problem because of the language. It's very hard to communicate with people. I am not secure in my language skills and often depending on my mood I am at a blank with what to say.
I know it was suggested to make friends just smile at the lady at the makeup counter and start talking about something I know but it's not so easy. There is American and british influence here but they do not speak english. Most people have a hard time speaking it and need a couple drinks before they will talk to me. If you ask someone if they speak english you will be almost sure to get a no. Now if I cant use norwegian I just start talking in english so they dont have a choice.
The unemployment rate is very high here and there isn't much chance of work. They will hire a norsky first and they will even tell you that. I have experienced discrimination on quite a few occasions.

I have applied for tons of jobs here and never once got a call. I can do the Mary Kay in norsk because I do most of the talking and I have control of the situation. Everywhere else I have no control.

To be honest, I dont feel at all like I belong here and I dont want to fit in anymore. It doesnt matter.

There, your turn to ramble!!!
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin