((((kd))))

I agree with Monty in what was said. I do believe this is a very big step in your recovery. I doubt that it is a "test" that you can pass or fail. I think you are getting stronger and the others know this. They pick these times for us this is thier job. Trust in them.

As to what to do with the knowledge...let it digest. Stick with your support and let the shock wear off. It will and you will move past this. Like Monty said it is a grieving process. Let it run the course it needs to run.

I think the end result of all this will be a great thing for you. I am not saying the trip will be easy, I am saying it will be worth it in the end.

(((kd)) You are a very kind and caring person my friend. We are always here for you. Take very good care.

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