All4with4,

I haven't done a mamogram in about 10 years. I know I should, but I can't seem to do it and my mom died of breast cancer, so I really feel like an idiot.

I also went through huge amounts of sexual abuse from early in life into my teens. I'm very reluctant to live in my body, I sort of live in my head.

I know this is pretty bold of me to ask, but do you know if you experienced any of this? I blocked this out until I was a married mom. All of a sudden I was very worried about and protective about my girl babies.

There are reasons why we do what we do. I wish I could offer you some idea of how to get past this. All I can offer is my concern and care for you as a woman. I know you will get past it at sometime, it will cease to stop you and you will find a way to take care of yourself.

Leslie