This is so darn sad Pink. The love you have for him just pours right out in your post.

For me, that love can stay forever - the ...um...denisty somehow changes. But it's still there. After a while it feels less solid and directed at a person, but it's more cloud like...or fog, but in that form it can surround you. That is a comforting thought for me.

Take care,

Slippers