I was at a decent weight until about two years ago. I'd lost some extra weight that I'd gained over my childbearing and raising years. But then my last child married and moved out. I was suddenly in an empty home with a workaholic husband and lots of loneliness. I began to binge on sugar products and mope around. I've got two knees that need replacement and I just slid into a midlife revision. I'm not sure what to do with myself any more. My kids don't need me nearly so much and my husband is distant and uninvolved.

This self-sabotage is getting pretty old. I need to change something and I just can't seem to hit on a way to do that. So, I' m writing to just call it what it is - me being bad to myself. I'm tired of the cycle. Binge, guilt, hold off and then do it all again. How long will I do this before giving myself permission to take proper care of myself.

Any thoughts on this from you would be appreciated.

Leslieann