((((((((((((Leslieann))))))))))))

I'm so sorry you are struggling. I know how it feels to not have a relationship with the husband. Would he consider going to marital counseling with you? Sometimes after being together so long all the hurts and stresses and difficulties of life pile up...people don't even realize or appreciate what you have any more.

About the binging....choose your pain. The way I see it is that you have two options and either one is painful. You can:

1) binge and feel guilty and bad about yourself which is painful
2) not binge and forego the 'comfort' that you get from the binging, which is painful

either way there is pain, so you need to pick the painful option that will give you the best results in the end, which would probably option 2.
I don't mean to say this will be easy but if you can get your mind to think this way maybe it will be helpful.
Have you looked into any support groups for overeating?
best wishes to you....
ktgirl