Wow, there's a lot there.. I'm sorry that this happened to you..
I guess I'm piling more stress on myself by thinking about how my Dad died when i was 3 (commited suicide) and how I couldn't be at his funerak because I was too young to understand.. Along with my foster Dad.. I didn't even know he was dead until after his funeral, so never got to go

I don't want to miss this one, I want to pay my respecs to my friend.. But.. I just can't eat.. I have been eating foods I like, but they still make me feel quite sick, so I will try the oatmeal biscuits..

What are depersonalization symptoms?

It's good that you got to spend the last few hours with you Mother, but devastating that you had to be there when she died..

I used to have a dog, until I got kicked out of my family home, at 16.. I'm 17 now.. That dog was everything that kept me going, that stopped me from so many suicide attempts.. But, because of my love for, and understanding of, animals, she was the one thing that kept me going, the only living thing that made me feel of some worth and made me feel loved and cared about and like somebody actually needed/wanted me there.. Now.. My adoptive family have her and they treat her like ***** and I hate that.. I want to get her back, but it's proving extremely difficult..

I have an infection or two now and that's making me ill, I feel ill anyway and just don't feel like getting out of bed anymore.. She was the onyl real living thing I got out of bed for in the mornings and now.. I don't have that, I just have college and even that's gonna be a drag this year because of people causing trouble with me.. I don't know what to do!! I feel like.. I have failed everyone and I feel like I'm just gonna get worse and worse and just fail college because of people pushing me out of the group.. I don't know

I hate this...