hmmmmmmmmmmm. there are times now that i have very little compassion towards myself. i know that i'm wrong to play the blame game (toppling my own world is my fault)because i can really get into a major funk.
my feelings towards people who are struggling more than i am have changed over the years. living in New Mexico changed me alot. Taos attracted so many young ""hippies" who didn't want to work but they wanted material goods and a good space to lay their heads.....i got jaded rather quickly.. animals still reside in that spot that is soft. i really don't know that i'm a people pleaser any more. i really don't. i can be rather abrupt and withdrawn..but that may be from my disease...???? i've done my share of volunteering for obscure causes because i can't afford to give much money...this is a hard one for me....when i say i may be too compassionate at times, i'm referring to ending up with four cats instead of one..they were dumped and i couldn't leave them. i'm also referring to giving a neighbor money and later finding out that she spent it on crack. i didn't take the time, soft heart, to analyse what was going on with her....just "loaned" her the money.....