I wondered if you ever served in war time?
alot of folks have come back with PTSD of their experiences over seas.
I was in the air force and air national guard, the military is a very different way of life...I could not handle it and got out.
I am glad that you connected with someone in your real life...being isolated is just terrible.
Perhaps there is a drop in center that you could go to get some support.
Here in louisiana there are support groups called bridges run thru the NAMI association...you may something like that there.
I wish it was easier for you...still think your meds are not right.
I am sorry it is so hard.
((((HUGS))))
bizi