Thanks Lenny!! I needed that boost! I will try to hold on a little longer. Thanks for being honest with me, and letting me know that I am not invisible, i tend to think im invisible lately maybe because im trying to isolate myself from everything and everybody in some way but still wanting to be visible to others- if that makes any sense. my moods are erratic lately. wow...i walked away from finishing this post for just a minute or two and i can back and my mood went down further- am i really that messed up that i can switch back and forth from depressed to even more depressed- my head is spinning- sorry im rambling and not making any sense and everyone is prolly laughing at me right now or thinking im really crazy.