Today's not good for that. Check back in two weeks, and depending on the weather, planetary alignment, and sunspot activity, it might be better. But first you'll need a signed petition from 5,000,000 people granting you permission. In the meantime, feel free to meditate on a single happy thought, and later listen to some relaxing music. The forecast calls for no cutting PLEASE! Other people have beaten you up enough, I assume, so there's absolutely no reason you deserve to be beaten up anymore, especially by yourself.