((((cantstopcrying)))) sometimes tears work wonders... I find that the holding back of tears can hurt more.
Is there any time in your day that you can take an hour, half an hour, even 5 minutes to do something you want to do? Is there anything that relaxes you? Maybe reading, drawing, taking a bath, doing yoga, sit listening to soothing music, shopping, a walk?
Please don't dwell on not receiving messages... focusing on the negative means allowing only negative things to happen. Try (and I do know it's hard) to think of positive things and positive things can happen.

Hope your feeling better soon, take care
Molly