Well I'm back and I'm sorry for being gone so long needed to sort things out in my life, well that didn't work cause I feel like doing the deed, I wish I could feel happiness but alas it eludes me once again. Life is bleak and dark I just wish that I could just dissapear into nothingness. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, why must I suffer so? My wrists ich so bad right now but I shall not do any thing for I made a promise but some times I wish I could.