BB, I want to get out of the house. I just can't handle going anywhere. Does that make any sense?

Wantt, I'm not sure if I can handle sitting in the car alone.

I guess what bothers me is that I actually feel the emotions now. This is what I mean. This is the second time I've been homebound like this. The first time we were 19, I would cry and get upset anytime we were made to leave the house. But back then I didn't "FEEL" the emotions. I had them but didn't feel them. Like I was numb to my own emotions. So I would get upset. But it didn't bother me. I didn't sit at home and worry about the next time I was forced to leave the house.

Now I feel the anxiety/ panic. I feel my body as well. Can feel the heat and sweat in my body. The shaking and the lack of breath that's happening. It's like I get a panic from feeling the emotions.