Sorry, I can't stay long, but is so very important you take this up with your pdoc. or even a new one.
Remember, you do NOT have to feel like this.
Many meds., therapy, options.
So, please give the pdoc a call, and tell him or her just how you feel, and you want a consult with them.
Again, so sorry, I have to get offline.
Meanwhile, talk to those here, get in touch with your mental health provider(s) ASAP. . . let us know how it goes.

Sincerely,

DE