Some kids bounce back quickly after being abused and can talk about it easy, and recover from it quickly. These people end up living great lives, have families and happy lives.

Some kids don't bounce back, though. Some cant take the pain and the memories and dont have happy lives. I know, cause i'm one of them.

I'd always been rejected in life, cause of how i am. I was even teased in school a lot, and bullied and even some of the other kids in my special needs classes were mean to me. I was constantly beaten up and kids would pull my pants down so everyone would laugh at me.

Now, i'm mentally and physically 10 years old, in a 32 year old body. I lived my life in fear. fear of rejection and not being accepted. fear of being picked on and made fun of.

People call me a freak and say i'm a retard baby. i dont know exactly what retard really means, but i know they say it to be mean to me. just cause i'm different.

Well, i have news. i like being how i am. i love being a kid, even if i dont always understand what grownups understand. why should i be scared of being me? why should i hide who and what i am? all i do when i do that is lie, and hurt myself. I dont wanna hide me anymore. i dont like lying. hiding is lying, so i'm not gonna do it anymore. i'm me, and if people dont accept that, then they can kiss my butt.

i know this may be in the wrong area, but i did not really know where to put it. specially since i guess this means i went from victim to survivor.

i just wanna be me, a kid, and have a happy life.