This feeling of darkness and emptiness...
Like if a huge ball of fear and unhappiness is on my shoulders...
Giving me a blurred vision of things...

I know things are not the way I see them right now but I can't avoid this interpretation of them... I'm back in the dark hole... wishing I get to the bottom 'cause it's the only way I can push me up again... Water is cold and I can't see around me... I gasp for air... I'm sinking again and again... wish there was a life saver...