I am thinking about this at the moment because after my last therapy session, I experienced a very strange phenomenon. I couldn't really connect it to a particular topic we discussed, because last session was not very.... insightful or traumatic. Only after I sat down later that night did I realize that the strange sensation seem to start during the therapy session and then slowly escalated following the session and peaked when I was around others that evening. It only started to abate when I finally sat down completely alone and tried to deliberately calm myself and interpret what was going on. I wasn't successful in reaching any type of conclusion about what it was or what might have triggered it, but I was able to record the experience. It wasn't a flashback, it didn't feel like my typical anxiety, it wasn't fear, if anything it was more like aggression. At the time I was more curious than afraid. It is just hard to explain the whole thing.

Anyway... with my new, more open T communications... after I recorded the details of what I was experiencing and was unable to come up with no real conclusions about the experience on my own, I EMAIL everything I had written to my T that night. Basically said,.. I have no idea what just happened but I think it means something. Copy & pasted that part of my personal journal into the email message and clicked send.

That was 3 weeks ago, what ever it was, it was over with that night. Now I am wondering... do I now have a new label in my chart? I know my T will not outwardly respond negatively to it, but I am kind of concerned about the whole thing.