Judy and Company,

My BF loves to play and color with one of my littles (the other won't talk to anyone) and so he is a bit disappointed that he can't do those things with her right now. He worries that she is getting sad or upset...he is so caring. I told him that things are fine inside, but in actuality I keep hearing the frustration they have. I am going to play more video games, that way no one will know it is really the others (as I call them) playing!

I know that the others would like to open up, but I get too shy, ashamed and embarrassed so I just don't let them out to anyone except my BF (except lately). Plus, I get the feeling that my T just doesn't believe me or thinks it's something else.

I think it's great that you have been able to get so much out of therapy! I hope I can do that one day.

I have let the others color and draw before, but I don't like T asking a lot of questions about them. It's as though she is asking "too many" questions for everyone inside to feel "safe", if that makes sense.

I will try to write more to T about how the others are feeling and what they are going through....it's hard though....the trust thing. That is a huge deal. I am trying to trust her, but she is an authority figure and that scares me.

Thank you so much for all your insight and experience. It helps to know that there is a way out, but it will take a lot of work. I think once I learn to trust T things will go smoother, it will just take some time.

BJ