I think the only way to get over it is the take a chance by trusting someone you know will not hurt you, like your T. I know it is very scary, and a very very very hard thing to do. When you feel strong enough and brave enough, maybe you could print out your post and give it to her?....or email it to her?

I wish I could be more helpful...
hang in there (((((((((((((((((((((xylia))))))))))))))))))))