Griffe,

I know what that awful feeling of aloneness is like - it's a horrible place to be in. But remember you are not alone, you have everyone here on PC and even if we're only cyber friends, we're here to support you.

I too grew up thinking strong meant looking after myself, not asking for help, keeping everythign in, but that only left me really messed up with a drinking problem. Once I started to ask for and accept help my life got better. I started my journey towards getting better on a web board too, not psych central but an SI board, because it was a safe and annomous way to rant and get support. That got me used to the idea of getting support, so when my life finally fell apart completely I was able to ask for and get help. My life still isn't perfect, I'm still lonely a lot, but I'm sober and I know I have people I can call if I need to talk. I also use PC and my other board a lot too.

I know it's hard to reach out for help IRL, it's scary but to me asking for help is one of the bravest things a person can do. It is not a sign of weakness, it is believe it or not a sign of strength that you want to get help.

I hope it goes well with the Dr.

Hang in there.

--splitimage