it would be so much easier just to give up....lyn

why is it when your world feels like it's crashing... this is the time that the flashes and urges are the worst.

pros
1. if i cut i will be able to distance myself from it all even if it's only for a short time.
2. if i cut i will be able to sleep
3. it's my body and i should be able to cut if i want (mature huh?)
4. if i cut i will feel feel better
5. if i cut it will keep me from getting to that really dark place that i am headed for quickly and never sure if i can get out of.
6. if i cut my panic attacks will go away
7. if i cut the flashes will stop for awhile
8. if i cut maybe the binging will stop
9. if i cut i won't have to deal with these emotions i have no clue what to do with.


cons
1. if i cut i will have to wear long sleeves
2. if i cut i will have to admit to t
3. if i cut he will make me show him
4. if i cut i will have to talk about it
5. if i cut i will feel ashamed when i think about what i did