Thanks Orange....I was pretty angry when I wrote that. I am still mad but mostly sad. I am tired of being someones disposable family member. When you dont have a mom or a dad who loves you or able to be a parent you kinda want to look for an aunt or something and they just dont want you either because they are ill and your not a birth child so you get all the yucky stuff. She (my aunt) has been very very mean to me...and I am a loving caring person and I have to just brush it off and get back up because I have three kids now and they need me. I really want to scream and yell and slam windows so hard they break (sigh)