Hello Icanbnormal, and welcome to PC! I'm sure you'll be happy here.

I'm sorry that you're going through a difficult spot right now. The first thing that I would do is talk to your doctor about the meds, it's never a good idea to do these things on your own. There are other meds out there and perhaps they'll work better for you.

Having young children is stressful, and sometimes hubby doesn't realize that you need a day off too once in a while. Any way to pack them a picnic lunch and send them off to the park for the afternoon so you can take a nice long bath, read a magazine, or take a nap?

As for your friend, I would approach her one day after church and say "I really miss spending time with you, have I done something to offend you?"

I wish you the very best of luck!