I want to be pretty, I want to be skinny or at least thinner. I am fat and ugly. And I want to do something about it. This week was horrible. I am an emotional eater. I have chosen ~yes I am taking ownership of this~ to eat my feelings away. And now I see what a bad thing it was to do. I dont look good in any of my clothes now. Not that i did before but now I am major ugly. I am willing to do what I probably shouldnt do , but i feel its my only option right now.That is to make myself throw up after I eat. I have tried numerous weight loss programs and nothing helps. I dont want to go to the gym either.I dont want anyone to see me like this. And alls I can do right now is cry. because it was my choice. please help me. I need this to stop. I cant seem to get it under control.