I just switched insurance and there is a 30 vist per year maximum. I thought, great, we could fit in 30 visits between now and December between my regular therpist and the marriage counselor. No problem, right?

Well, there is also a 60 visit LIFETIME limit on mental health sessions. I know I will need more than that. I have been going weekly.

I have Bipolar II Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder. I was suicidal 3 times in 6 weeks in June & July.

My marriage is okay. He has been very supportive through all my recent crap, which really does mean a lot to me. I'm starting to see that he does love me.

However, we still live in more of a 'partnership' or brother-sister type relationship, and it's been that way for a long time. Not just intimacy, but we are not romantic at all, almost never.

And we have a lot of issues to work out. It took him 5 years to marry me, and even then he only said 'yes' - that's right, I had to propose - when I was pregnant.

And worst of all...in my impulsiveness...I cheated on him, more than once. The disorders explain why, but they don't make it okay.

So....long story short, what should we do? Money is VERY tight right now because I basically took two months off work, and now I'm just part-time.

Should we continue marriage counseling? Or save the # of visits for my own counseling? I do think a lot of 'our' issues are really 'my' issues, especially the impulsiveness. Maybe if we fix me it will fix us?

What do you think?